I never imagined I would be facing bananas go bananas as I picked up the phone and dialed her number. As I spelled out my intention to forgo the offer, I was bombarded of why, of what, of even who do you think you are?
"You cant simply say you cant go because your boss assigned you to xx project. Bosses aren't even supposed to assign anything to staff leaving for this SGDP. Are you sure that it's not your personal decision?"
Other that I-love-what-I'm-doing-now, I-love-KL, I-hate-being-away-from-my cat; it was sort of a personal decision. Madam, we plan to get married this year. HOHO. This is a no-no answer. So, I answered to her, diplomatically, that it is strongly driven by my career aspiration, nothing personal (which is 60% true)
"Zalina, do you have any idea the flow of processes we went through before coming out with the approval and offer? It took us a year!
Yeah I know Madam. I am aware on the series of processes, the level of authority you have to go through, that is why it's time consuming.
It had sufficiently caused me mental impairment. But as a xx manager, she gotta do what she gotta do. After a few sec, I am fully recovered and starts smiling again. Hurrah! My To-do in 2008 can proceed as scheduled :)
I have made my call. No more of guilt and confusion of making the right decision. I am wiser now. I know what I want in life. After that much of thoughts, I decided not to pursue my Masters. Correction. Not my Masters. Never even mine in the first place.
Other that I-love-what-I'm-doing-now, I-love-KL, I-hate-being-away-from-my cat; it was sort of a personal decision. Madam, we plan to get married this year. HOHO. This is a no-no answer. So, I answered to her, diplomatically, that it is strongly driven by my career aspiration, nothing personal (which is 60% true)
"Zalina, do you have any idea the flow of processes we went through before coming out with the approval and offer? It took us a year!
Yeah I know Madam. I am aware on the series of processes, the level of authority you have to go through, that is why it's time consuming.
"The SGM.. the Company entrusted you and offered you an opportunity and you simply put down the offer. Now you need to write to all the bosses and explain WHY you choose to decline"
I am fully responsible for my decision. I will write the email.It had sufficiently caused me mental impairment. But as a xx manager, she gotta do what she gotta do. After a few sec, I am fully recovered and starts smiling again. Hurrah! My To-do in 2008 can proceed as scheduled :)